I’M NOT GOING TO SUGAR COAT THIS…
I was a mess.
Curled up on the unforgiving floor of my New York City apartment, with a hurricane of tears pouring from my face.
I felt so weak, so lost, so worthless.
Over the past month, my whole life had been dismantled in front of me…ripped apart piece by piece. Just when I thought things were finally coming together, it all came crashing down. I was trapped in quicksand. Each day I’d sink deeper and deeper into despair as I’d struggle more and more to escape it. From that hard floor, I cried out “God, Universe, whoever can hear me, I need help. I need some direction. Please.”
WHAT HAPPENED NEXT I NEVER EXPECTED
But let’s rewind…
Just a month before I was starring in a legit feature-length film. I had my own trailer. Full makeup, the works. I felt like I had finally made it. All my work to become a successful actress was finally paying off. “I better start getting used to this.” I smiled to myself. “Things are only going up from here.” Everything started to spin out of control when multiple attempts were made to manipulate me into doing a sex scene. It wasn’t in the script. And I’m not the business to be treated as a sex toy. I believe in empowering women. Not objectifying them.
So I quit.
My life got caught in a tailspin. I was floundering in a quarter life crisis questioning everything about my existence. I lost my purpose. I couldn’t see my next move.
And then my mom died.
She was only 57 years old, and she was my best friend. Prescription medication intended to keep her healthy ended up taking her life. On top of that, at the same time, I found out that my father had fallen back into his drug addiction. It felt like the universe had delivered a knock-out punch to the future I thought was in store for me. I collapsed into grief and depression. I didn’t know what to do. I felt so aimless, so lost. Everything I thought I knew about myself and this world was washed away. I couldn’t imagine a future for myself. At that moment I lost my appetite for life. There I was curled up on the floor. Desperate for something. A clue. A sign to tell me which direction to go. How to take the first step.
I made that cry for help. And then suddenly, I felt this wave of calm wash over me. I actually felt the presence of God encapsulating me.
I realized with such lucidity what I was meant to do. I saw how I had been neglecting the very thing I needed to care for most. I was so angry at how my mom’s body betrayed her but here I was, betraying my body. I was under eating and completely out of sync with what my body needed from me.
THAT DAY I REALIZED THAT HEALTH BRINGS FREEDOM FEW REALIZE, UNTIL THEY NO LONGER HAVE IT. WITHOUT YOUR HEALTH, YOU HAVE NOTHING.
I got up from that floor. And marched on with my life determined to reclaim my health. One foot in front of another. Day after day.
And now I see the impact I’m here to make.
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